Updated: Jun 26, 2019
This is me: done with school, diploma in one hand and a heavy bag of expectations in the other. Because this is my life, and it should be exciting, it should be special. My heart is bursting with all the opportunities. Right now, at this moment, I can be anything. I can go anywhere. I am free to be alive, to be in the moment. To be, and to become.
This is me: acutely aware of how overwhelming all these little moments are. Taking in the entire world with every single sunburnt second and asking questions that may never be answered. This is me: trying so hard to find my way.
I know: I am free to simply take off and leave everything I have memorised in the last years behind. To shake myself free of the routine and the tedious everyday rituals, and to discover something new. If I'm lucky, I might even discover something extraordinary.
I also know: none of this is really that special. This is what we do, we take a year off, we set out, searching for something behind the horizon. We are young, the world is our oyster. We are so unwilling to simply settle down into a life of structure and balance. We're afraid of the finality, we're scared that we don't know who we are yet. We're hoping that if we learn more about the world, we'll find ourselves along the way.
I'm planning, but I can't really know where I'll end up. I just know that this year is a chance to learn and to love and to live. With every step I take, I am heading towards a future that I can only just glimpse. I am chasing sunsets. I am catching moonbeams.
I don't know, what's going to happen, but I do know that I'm excited. I've made it this far, and now I'm finally going to make it even further. I have dreams, I have hopes, and I though don't know what adventures are waiting for me, I know that they will be daring and hopeful and new.
I don't know what kind of a person I'll be when I return. I don't know if I will change at all. But I hope that whoever I am, I will be happy.
Basically, I don't know anything much at all. But what I do know is that I am headed in the right direction. I'm a dreamer setting off into a world of dreams.
So, this is me: filled with expectations and dreams, heart bursting with love for the world and adventure. This is me, getting ready to soak up the universe.
This is me setting off.